Thu 20/01/2011 @ 21:41. Filed under Personal, Site.
Yes, finally, I’m getting down to work. Wordpress is installed and I imported all the posts, I still don’t know how to import the comments, though.
I guess this is my last blog entry from FanUpdate. I just need to change the layout. The thing is, I haven’t designed the new one. I don’t even know how I want it to be. So, that might take me some extra time. Oh man, and the coding. I don’t even know if I will understand wordpress’ theme coding. But at least I have to try it. I really need to upgrade the site. FanUpdate is ok, and it was good at first for just the updates and requests, but now I need something more. I want to start blogging, and FanUpdate is way too simple, specially when it comes to comments. I want something more complete, with more functions and options. I was hesitating between Habari and Wordpress, and I was actually inclined to Habari, but since there are more tutorials and support for Wordpress, I chose that one.
I’m really hoping to finish the migration soon. I mentioned, a few months ago, that my dad and dog had surgery and that my mom needed one. Well, my mother didn’t have surgery after all. She postponed it. She’s like that. But now I’m the one who has to go through surgery. Mine is not optional, and can’t be postponed. It turns out that all the pain I’ve been having is because I have glallbladder stones. Therefore, my gallbladder needs to be extracted. I’m actually terrified. When I first found out about the surgery, I cried for the the first two weeks. I still do, not that much, but the crying still consumes a good amount of my time, lol. I’m really scared. I’ve already had three surgeries, but it doesn’t make me less scared.
I still have some weeks before the surgery. The surgeon is on vacation, he will return for the end of January, and then I’ll have to go through some tests. And I was supposed to be on a strict diet to lose weight for the surgery. But I can’t seem to be able to do it. I’m so scared and nervous, that I always find myself eating to calm down the anxiety. So, this last month I haven’t lost any weight. I’m such a failure I wish I could just close my mouth and stop eating candy. I’ve asked my mother to help me (for the eleventh time, approximately), but she just doesn’t get it. I don’t know what’s the deal with her. I have already had several arguments with her, because she keeps offering me caloric edibles, like pasta, bread, wine, ice-cream, vegetarian potato pie (that was the last one, and it’s really caloric), etc. She doesn’t make it easier. She keeps tempting me, and it’s hard to say no. Luckily, I haven’t gained weight, being vegetarian helps a lot on that. But I haven’t lost either. I guess, unconsciously, I’m trying to avoid losing weight, because that would mean that the date is near, and that I will have surgery soon, and maybe this way I’m denying the fact that this is going to inevitably happen.
I still have some weeks, so perhaps I can manage to lose weight in that time. My dad and my younger sister are arriving tomorrow, maybe they will help me getting back on track and start losing weight, but I’m not very sure. My father is the tempter-type, too, and my younger sister has this odd urges to cook and eat french fries at any time of the day, specially the morning. So, I see it difficult.
Anyway, how did I end up talking about all the weight loss drama? The point is (was) that I want to finish the migration before the surgery. Let’s see if I can achieve it.
Oh, I almost forgot: don’t freak out if, suddenly, the site looks all messed up; it’s probably because I changed the layout and something went wrong
Ok, I’m off to see Big Brother (Argentina).
Thu 21/10/2010 @ 15:19. Filed under Personal, Site.
I feel so irresponsible, I have completely neglected the site. I’ve been meaning to change the layout, add content, finished the signatures, blog more, etc., but the universe is not on my side.
After my dog’s death, my life went through an imbalance. It took me months to get out of bed. I still haven’t been able to adjust to her absence. I keep dreaming she’s alive, and I’m so happy in the dreams. But then I wake up and realize it’s just that, a dream. I wake up almost every day feeling empty. And no matter what I do, the feeling never goes away.
I also have three more dogs, that consume all my energy. One of them is a puppy (she was born in a whole, in the ground -dirt-, in the middle of a vacant lot) and she’s very hyperactive. She’s the destructive kind. She chews everything. She’s like a tornado. And she still doesn’t have a good continence, so she urinates and defecates inside the house a lot of times a day. I spend the majority of the time cleaning all that, and keeping an eye on her.
I have also began to have stomach problems. I’ve had them for years, but five months ago they got worser. Last time, I had to go be rushed to the E.R.
I don’t really want to talk about it, but I feel less pain and I’m more comfortable if I lean back on the couch or the bed. That way, the stomach doesn’t have too much pressure. So, I don’t spend too much in front of the desk because of the position. I have all the signatures, pixels, site files, etc. in the desk computer, and I can’t use it. I use he notebook, but it is almost empty. Therefore, I haven’t been able to do anything for the site in months.
If those weren’t enough, my dad and one of my dogs had surgery.
My dog had it a week ago. Her uterus was completely infected, and it was full of cysts. She also had some cysts in one of her mammary glands. So, they removed the uterus and the breast’s cysts. I have to clean the stitches four times a day, and I have to control that she doesn’t lick them. I pretty much spend all day controlling my dogs and taking care of them.
My dad had the surgery today. It was a hip surgery. He comes home this Sunday, so, starting Sunday, I’ll be his servant. Really.
The thing with my dad is that he thinks he’s almighty. He assumes he can do everything and anything. He’s one of those persons that don’t want to call a plumber, try to fix it and make a mess. So, he forces his body more than it can, and he ends up with pain and exhausted. Instead of doing small things and distributing his energy wisely; he tries to do big things that require big efforts. He normally is not able to finish those things, and ends up spending the rest of the day with pain. I don’t know if it’s his pride, but he never admits he can’t do something. And the same happens when he’s in pain. He always makes everyone think he’s ok, he’s handling it; but he’s actually suffering.
He was a in a car accident between 14 vehicles, three years ago. 5 persons died in the accident. At first he told us he was fine, he was being taken to the hospital, but that he was ok. It turns out he was not ok. He was in Intensive Care, with a lot of broken and smashed vertebrae, ribs, etc. (That’s why he’s always in pain). But he tried to convince us (or himself) that it was nothing, when it was actually something really serious and bad.
When he came home after the accident, he finally realized he wouldn’t be able to move for a few months. So, I had to become his servant. And now it will happen the same. Luckily, this time I don’t have the broken toe, like three years ago (it broke a week after my dad come home, I fall down the stairs), so I will be able to move faster. But unfortunately, I also have to take care of the dog that had surgery, run all day after the mess the mini tornado does and cope with my stomach pain.
But that’s not it. In a month, my mother will have a surgery, too.
With some luck, I will have some free time for myself, but I don’t know if that will happen.
Now, site-wise: as I said, I won’t have much time to use on the site for a while, but I will try. I really want to change the layout, I pretty much hate the current one. Before all this mess began, I had installed Wordpress and I was ready to adapt a new layout to it, but I had to uninstall it. I don’t have the time right now to learn about worpress’ coding and migrate the site. I also closed some of the requests. I didn’t like some of them anymore, and others took me a lot of time. I’m trying to simplify the requests, and reducing the time I have to spend finishing them.
I have a lot of affiliates to add, and others to remove. I have around five sets of emoticons that need to be finished. I have new signatures, new icons, new cursos, new cliques, and some many things. But they are all half-finished. I don’t seem to be able to finish one simple thing.
I’m going to try to do something before Sunday (when my dad comes home), and I guess it’s going to be the signatures. I will have to transfer all the files and all the fonts to the notebook, and I don’t know if I have the patient to do all that. I want to, but I don’t know if I will.
So, sorry to all those that are waiting for the requests to be finished. I will eventually finished.
And to those that requested a signature that was later closed, sorry, but I won’t finished them.
It’s time to clean the stitches again. yay